Stress

Just when I thought I had things figured out, managing my time, be able to get my running in, getting somewhat enough sleep.... life will throw you a curve ball (or two). It seems as if things are starting to become overwhelming and stressful. Again. More overwhelming and stressful than before.

Last friday I received a piece of mail from the university, telling me that I am enrolled in TOO many credits. One would think that wasn't possible. As part of the RT program, we get a stipend due to the fact that they consider our residency (teaching during the day) as a 1/2 time GTA position. With that, they only want us to be enrolled in 6-10 credits, which would make us part time student. Makes sense. But, I am enrolled in 13 credits. Full time. This is mostly due to the 4 credits I am taking as part of my internship. So, now I have to fill out this graduate school petition to see if I can get those few extra credits okayed. If not, I may have to drop a class. All that work, and I would have to drop a class and take it next summer. I don't want to graduate in the summer. Graduating in the summer (August) means that I will not be getting my credentials prior to school starting, which in return makes job hunting/snatching quite difficult. I am a little miffed.

My classes are really overwhelming. Lots to do, and just not enough time. I feel as if I need to put everything on the back burner. Running, social life, etc. This is really hard for me. I am one who feeds of off challenges, and have always loved having a full plate, but this is difficult. I am out the door by 7am (sometimes earlier) every morning, and not home until after 7 on tuesday/thursday, and 10 on wednesday night. For those of you who work with children, can testify that it can be draining; mentally, physically, and most definitely emotionally (especially when working with special education students). I spend my monday nights doing homework. I spend Tuesday nights doing homework after class. I spend Wednesday, between school and class, making sure I am ready for Thursday. Usually, it is at this time that I start to realize I don't have everything ready for my 4:00 class on Thursday. Thursday, after class, I am so mentally drained, it is hard enough to get things ready for school for Friday. I come home friday, and can't get myself to really do anything because I am so burnt out from the week. (Like last friday....I came home and ended up falling asleep in front of the tv, missing the Twins game) Then I spend most of my Saturday/Sunday doing projects and trying to stay on top of things.

Don't get me wrong, I have had my fair share of fun. I have made the effort to get out Thursday nights for volleyball (for an hour), which I beleive this is our last week (thank God). I have gone out a Friday/Saturday night here or there. But, I feel as if I need to put those things asside for now and figure out how to tackle all this crap. Yes, I still need to make time to run/workout. I just have to realize it won't be as much as I would like. Some is better than none. Yes, I still need to make time to socialize. But, I can't be going out and having "TOO much fun." That is wearing me out.

And what am I doing now? I am posting in my blog. So, don't be suprised if you don't hear from me for a while (don't hold me to this!)...while I figure out my schedule and try to get things together! But, I find this as a relief, and hope to look back on it when I am all done with school (in May, hopefully)...and realize that it was quite the experience and that I have learned so much!

'Till next time....

Happy Running's, y'all!